To My Love

To My Love

Its been ages

since I left your home

to wander and to explore

from one lifetime to another

So long

since I felt the comfort of your arms

getting suffocated

in the arms of many men

in many lifetimes

yearning for true love

that was never there

Many lives

of fleeting pleasures

and never ending pain

Many lifetimes

of disgust, guilt, penance

and shame

A very tiring 

long journey

of superficial unions

in the make believe world
like a deep slumber

with dreams

so unreal

I am awake
at last

Nothing allures me any more

I want your love

just like before...

There have been some wonderful changes in my life and I know I have found back my love. I am still a sinner and stuck in the muck but I am aware and I am calling out my Krsna to pull me out...He is smiling at me.. He wants me to try some more.. I am certain He will hold my hand and embrace me forever.  (These words came out on paper sometime last month..)

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